The past 6 plus years have plagued my life with obstacles, not all bad just a lot of changes. I’ve had a hard time recouping from them, I haven’t had time to stop and heal and Covid ruined all I was building but I’m a Phoenix and I will rise from the ashes . My life has always been a chaotic series of ups and downs. To the point I fear happiness because when I accomplish what think to be happy I end up falling harder and harder. I wasn’t happy I was living a lie because it provided my children with a decent enough life. What I was ignoring…